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Wednesday, February 17th, 2010
3:04 am	Hmm Yet again I'm unable to sleep. Will I ever be able to return to work? It's been about 5 weeks now and I don't seem to be making any headway. I have got an appointment on Feb 26th though with my local Phsycological Therapies unit, see if they can do anything to helpo me. Other than that I seem to be becoming the perfect "househusband", tidying etc. Went to see NeYo at the weekend in Manchester and stayed over in a hotel, which was nice. Er, about it really... Current Mood: depressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 11th, 2010
9:16 am	Catch Up Hmmm almost a year since my last post. What's been happening? Oh boy..... My Motability car is coming to the end of its 3 years with me and I have ordered its replacement - the new Peugeot 3008 Crossover - which I am looking forward to taking delivery of. In other news my Brother met a girl online, moved in with her round the corner from me and was (he thought) building a future with her, and hoping to have kids etc. He's now in HMP Armley. Basically she was still shagging her ex on the side as well as half the local taxi drivers it seems while my Bro was out working all day. Just at the beginning of this year they split and she invited him to her house by text in the early hours of the morning where she then called the Police and kept him there till they arrived and said he'd poured petrol through her letterbox. He can't get bail as the charge is "attempted arson with intent to endanger life". All through a womans lies. Nice. Meanwhile a person I considered a friend has admitted to a court 5 counts of sexually abusing a 12 year old girl and has been granted bail and allowed to go home while he awaits sentencing. Has the world gone mad? And as for me, I've found out my left kidney is failing and that's causing all sorts of problems and additional pain for me. I now need to self catheterise (upt to 3-4 times some days). I'm also having problems with work, mainly over attitudes of management because of the time I've had to have away since last August/September - Yvonne's Brother died, and then her Granddad, so there were funerals to arrange and her Dad to get over from Las Vegas, we've all had swine flu at some point and there have been several other illnesses and hospital stays needed. Being the only driver in the house I've had to have loads of tiome off work, can't wait till Von is driving!! Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 31st, 2009
3:51 pm	Donating and Writing and Stuff Hmm. Just donated some money to one of my colleagues at work who is taking part in the reac for life for cancer research uk. It's a good cause and one dear to my heart for obvious reasons. That and anything to do with kids welfare. I've also been writing car reviews and articles for Mobilise magazine, which is interesting. I'm looking forward to seeing my 1st item appear in print. I've been asked by our new team leader at work to head up the new admin section, which should be interesting........ (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 21st, 2009
7:10 pm	Worried.... Joe's been in Italy all week skiing, and is now on his way home, hopefuilly. We heard lasty night that the coach had broken down, and they hadn't set off trill this morning so won't be back at 10 tonight as scheduled, probably around midday tomorrow hopefully. (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 31st, 2009
6:33 pm	Been and got Joes ski gear sorted today which was easier than expected. Surprised to find him taking up rc model cars as a hobby but hes very sensibly got something to show for his birthday money in the shape of an electric car which he has taken to his dads. Wonder if it will last? (Comment on this)
Friday, January 30th, 2009
12:46 am	Emotion Just watched a film called The Butterfly Effect, which has left me a gibbering emotional wreck, least for the time being. It was a good film though did act as a reminder of past events, from a different life, along time ago. So, feeling emotional, I have then got onto thinking about how shit life is with my condition, whether that be MS or a mental illness or whatever - I am sick and tired of the frigging injustice of it all. First there's my Dad and all that shit, then I get bullied at school, bullied at home, bullied every fucking where, then there's the cancer (now a little c) and now this - the problems with memory, with walking, wioth speaking, with my sight, with every fucking thing. I mean, come on, give me a break here!!! What have I got to do????? What have I got to do? Pull myself together? Stop cryingf like a girl? Stick my shoulders back, my chest forward and get on with it? And what does the future hold for me? Any more surprises? Anyone else wanna have a kick? Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 28th, 2009
10:11 am	Hmmmmmm Hmm, medication check - daily amounts - Pregabalin 600mg - Amitriptyline 25mg Have been having problems sleeping lately, mainly because of eye problems and pain, saw Doc who prescribed the Amitriptyline which seems to be helping. Certainly sleeping better now. Feeling better at work, more relaxed. Need to work on communication - method and delivery ass I am told it sometimes comes across as confrontational and/or aggressive. BG has been to 2 NKOTB shows in the space of a week - Manchester and the special one at London that was unplanned - think she enjoyed them, though the London one was a disappointment apparently. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 13th, 2009
10:48 pm	Happy Birthday Well, I'm 32 now. Happy Birthday to me. And what do I have to look forward to? A bollocking from HR. Oh joy!! Email trail below with the details..... From: HR person Sent: 13 January 2009 14:39 To: Anderson-McIntyre Daniel (NHS Connecting for Health) Subject: RE: Meeting Hi Dan Thanks for your e-mail. I can understand that you may have some reservations about this meeting and you do have a lot of questions below. I would prefer to answer these within the meeting rather than attempt to do this in an e-mail so that I can explain things clearly. Alternatively I would be happy to answer any questions on the telephone prior to the meeting and am available for the rest of the week. I am conscious that you are on annual leave this week and I did not want to intrude on your personal time so I will leave this up to you. In addition, it has been brought to my attention that you have made some comments on Facebook about this meeting. This will also form part our discussion at the meetin. Thanks for letting me know that will be attending. The meeting has now been re-scheduled and will be on Tuesday next week. Will you let him know the meeting arrangments? Kind Regards HR Officer HR Department -----Original Message----- From: Anderson-McIntyre Daniel (NHS Connecting for Health) Sent: 13 January 2009 10:51 To: HR person Subject: RE: Meeting Hi , What exactly are the "concerns" you mention? And what do you think anyone can do to improve levels of sickness absence? If I am sick then I am sick - it can't be helped, can't be changed and isn't deliberate. If I come in when I am sick then has escort me from the building, yet if I don't come in I am hounded, judged and ordered to meetings with HR. I can't win - what am I supposed to do? Some of the sickness absence I have taken has been related to a disability and as far as I am aware this cannot be counted as sickness absence for the purpose of sick pay trigger points, yet no-one seems to have taken that into account. I would indeed like to be present as my mentor and as a friend and colleague as my last meeting with HR (the one where I was on my own and confronted by , Current Mood: frustrated (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 11th, 2009
1:51 am	I am not afraid of tomorrow, for I have seen yesterday and I love today (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 8th, 2009
11:17 pm	Catch Up Hmmm, figured it was about time for a catch up. Since my last update Babygirl and I have become engaged, we've had another xmas and new year successfully negotiated and another year begun..... I just had my third MRI scan and am awaiting the results - hopefully tell me why my eyes are so screwedd, or mnore likely tell me nothing at all. And thats about it really - mostly just getting through life day by day.... Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 27th, 2008
9:18 am	Gosh it's been aaaaaages!! Figured it was baout time for an update......... Still alive (just) and having a great time with babygirl and the kids. Coming up to a year of living together now.... Can't really think what else to say... (Comment on this)
Monday, December 31st, 2007
3:48 pm	2 Years... Well 2 years and 4 days since I started this here blog and wow how things have changed. I've just had one of the best Christmasses ever, spent with babygirl and the kids. (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 22nd, 2007
8:08 pm	2007 - Review of the Year This was a reply to a thread on the MSS discussion board, just thought I'd post it here too The year started for me on a bit of a low, being made redundant from a job I enjoyed with people I thought were friends. Since then though I've got together with ladyluck, who I met through this site and who was originally just a friend, we are now living together along with her 3 kids and that's going great, just looking forward to Christmas now (my first family Christmas ever!). I spent around 6 months out of work before getting a job with the National Grid in Rotherham and have recently (this week!) started working for the NHS Connecting for Health team in Leeds, who have been extremely helpful and provided automatically opening doors in the building for me, as well as my own parking space in the garage under the building (a Godsend in Leeds!!) with a barrier and garage door that open automatically as I approach. So it looks like this year is going to end on a high for me - certainly far better than it began, and it has been a bit life changing for me too. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 27th, 2007
5:47 am	Site Visit So today I have a site visit at the NHS in Leeds, one step closer to being there, should be interesting. Oh and one step closer to payday too!!! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 31st, 2007
12:00 am	Musing Driving to work this morning down the M1 and I thought (listening to Queen's "Show Must Go On") what do we live for. Then as the song ended and I rounded a bend the sunlight hit me and an image of BabyGirl and the kids came to me and I realised that's what it's for. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 14th, 2007
7:15 pm	Work Well, last week (Monday) I accepted an offer from National Grid and so tomorrow sees me re-enter the world of work at NAtional Grid on their IT Support team, starting at 9am. So today, having spent the morning stood at the side of a school football field watching Joe's team of under 12s get soundly thrashed (10-0)I spent some time cleaning the car inside and out (first time for about a month and much needed!!), filled it up and have just finished ironing school uniforms and my clothes for tomorrow. I'm all set, as far as I can tell. So - I'll be up at 6 tomorrow, and hopefully setting off round about 7am down the M1 to Rotherham. Getting excited, bit nervous too but I'm sure it'll be good. They seem a friendly bunch. (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 11th, 2007
1:32 am	Happy Birthday It's BabyGirls birthday today. Happy Birthday babe xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 9th, 2007
9:57 pm	Re-Entering The World Of Work.......GULP!! Well, 6 months after being made redundant from Northern Foods/Computacenter I am soon to start working again - Monday Oct 15th will see me tootling off to Fulcrum Connections, part of the National Grid, in Rotherham, close to Meadowhall. Can't wait and am excited as it means I will be earning again and might actually have some cash coming in and be able to finish things like the decorating at home and treat babygirl and the kids from time to time etc etc. Speaking of which it's BabyGirl's birthday on Thursday and I don't even have the cash to be able to get her a card, how bad do I feel!!! She says it's OK but not to me it isn't. I'll just have to spoil her once I do have the brass....... Baby just needs to get a job now. I think she's a bit p'd off that I've got one and she hasn't yet and it does mean she's gonna be having to take the kids to school herself which I do know will be very tiring and draining on her and again I feel bad about that but I do need to be working. There is one that she has been ocntacted about today which sounds very similar to what she was doing at Vokera so fingers crossed for that, we both know she can do it she just needs to ocnvince the company of that!! In other news my Mum now has email, OMG!!!! How scary is that!! I've already had a few mad messages from her, such as............... "Good morning Danny hope this don't wake ya up I'm not sure how they work yet but I'm getting there done spread sheets,registers,fire logs,trouble shooting in fact don,t think theres much more for me to learn! N I,m enjoying it all. Can ya send me the pic,s from Nan,s party please I can print em out. " lol (Comment on this)
Monday, October 1st, 2007
10:48 am	Monday Another week begins.... Got an interview shortly, fingers crossed though not holding my breath. Other than that just looking at vacancies. Just been reading a thread on MSS about how a woman married her ex partner as he was dying, thought it seemed romantic but my partner can only see the "what's she get out of it" side, that wouldn't ever have even occurred to me. (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 30th, 2007
10:13 pm	Yo.... Hiya.............. Well that's that out the way. Saw Halloween last night which was good, not half as scary as I'd expected but good nonetheless. Still looking for a job, now on 6 months (and one day) since I last did any work and it's crap, so boring. Got some interviews lined up over the next fortnight or so but getting interviews isn't a problem, the problem comes when they say no which doesn't half get to you. Still, climb every mountain and all that........... (Comment on this)